When it comes to birth trauma sometimes it feels as though operative vaginal deliveries are overlooked. While I was pregnant I was personally more scared of forceps than I was of the idea of having, or needing, a caesarean section.
The week before I went into labour there was a story in the news about a baby dying as a result of a forceps delivery.
I'll never be over my traumatic birth experience but I've somewhat accepted it. It was mentally and physically traumatic. I blamed myself and I felt like a failure. Ultimately I didn't push my baby into the word, he was dragged from my uterus by his head.
I tore that badly that it took almost three hours being stitched up. I was given a spinal block after delivery. I had a uterine prolapse. Bladder and bowel issues. Physiotherapy. It took over a year before I felt ok-ish again. Being in theatre meant I couldn't attempt breastfeeding until my son was three hours old. I had a huge blood loss and that combined with the trauma delayed my milk in coming in which resulted in a huge weight loss and readmission.
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