all good

End of April already...

I had a great night out on Friday. I wasn't even sure in the middle of the week if I wanted to go but I'm so glad I did. I had so much fun! There were five of us from work and it started off with us going to a fundraising night for SC's daughters dancing school but afterwords we went out for some dancing and too many shots! Honestly I'm so glad my mum had offered to take bug into the town for lunch the next day. I can count on one hand the amount of nights out I've had since before I was pregnant & that was the first I've been tipsy in over 4 years!

I've been on annual leave for a week now and I'm not really wanting to go back to work on Friday. I imagine once I'm back it will feel like I've never been away!

I've heard back from nursery. bug was offered an afternoon placement. Monday to Friday, 1-3:30pm. The council weren't much help, I'd mentioned before I contacted them to push for a morning slot and they'd look into it but of course never got back to me. I phoned again but by this time the placement was allocated so they weren't interested. Hmmm. So I phoned the nursery to say if I can drop the Friday when I can accept the place. A Friday is impossible to work with at the moment, my mum looks after bug on a Friday and doesn't drive and with the nursery being two buses away it would be too difficult. I chose a nursery in the town closer to where I work so L can drop him off the Monday and Tuesday. Anyway... The nursery were ok with me dropping the Friday but as the funding is there if my circumstances change then I can take up the Friday if I want to. All good.

Bug is brilliant. His talking amazes me. I think he's taken a stretch lately, looking a bit taller but still on the short side. I wonder if he'll catch up since I'm on the tall side at 5'7. Still having screaming tantrums. Absolutely nothing helps other than letting him calm down on his own. As bad as the screaming gets he comes out it quickly enough. I'm not concerned, just gets frustrating.

Lately he's been having "daddy" characters when he plays with his toys. I'm finding that hard but more so because I know he'll eventually start asking questions. I also seen adverts for Father's Day and wondered if fw feels anything when he see's them. I'm not getting too drawn into it since he's the one losing out on being a part of my wonderful little boys life.

I asked bug what he wants to do tomorrow and he wants to go the park and then go for an ice cream. Sounds good to me!

Time for me to get to bed!! Longest entry in quite a while.

dentist and nursery thoughts

We had the dentist this morning. I had been dreading it since I booked the appointment at the beginning of the month. A mixture of my usual dentist anxiety and worried how bug would be if we had ages to wait. Luckily we only had about ten minutes to wait. Plus bug had brought bunny so he was quite happy. At our last appointment he refused to open his mouth at all for the dentist. This time was very different. Bug tried to climb up on the chair by himself but it was too slidey. Once I helped him up he was very happy and let the dentist check all his teeth. He also had a fluoride coating put on and didn't fuss at all. I was impressed our dentist even pretending to clean bunny's teeth too! After he was all done the nurse gave him two stickers, one for bug and one for bunny. Once bug was all finished I had my teeth checked. Despite all my worrying all was well and I don't need anything done!

Naps have been a bit hit or miss at the moment. I do think he is in the process of dropping his nap but today he decided he wanted one.

Bug is due to start nursery in August 2013. I'm finding the 2.5 hours a bit awkward to work around. I really wanted a morning place (9-11:30am) because then it means I can drop him before work and on a Monday/Tuesday L could pick him up until I finish work. If he has a morning slot on a Friday then it means my mum can pick him up in the morning she looks after him if it was a nursery quite central to the town. I was advised they like three year olds to have an afternoon slot but I've phoned the dept of education to see if there's anything they can do because at the moment I'm looking at an afternoon slot in a nursery that's quite out the way for a Friday. I've asked about just skipping the Friday but they don't like that either. If I can't find something that works then I'll just need to consider not bothering with nursery until Aug 2014. Bug won't start school until Aug 2015 (when he's five an a half) because his birthday falls the beginning of March. L (childminder) thinks he's going to be very bored by then because she thinks he's a very clever little boy. Nice too hear. I'm also not entirely sure what he'll get from nursery that he isn't already getting from going to a childminder anyway. Yes there are more children but that's not something I'm worried about since he's very outgoing and sociable anyway.

The school cut off was something I thought about when I was pregnant. My due date was February so it did cross my mind that I'd either let him go to school at barely four and a half or delay starting school. In a way I'm glad to have the decision made for me. He's only three days past the cut off but I couldn't imagine him going to school in 16 months time. There's plenty of time for school so I don't feel any need to rush it at all.

 

Tantrums

Epic tantrums... my favourite are the ones in the middle of Morrisons with Bug lying on the floor kicking his legs. Of course the tantrum wouldn't be complete without plenty of high pitched screaming. I'm also loving all the looks from people as if I purposefully instructed my son to put on this wonderful show for everyone. Could possibly be motivation to look into online shopping.

Whenever Bug plays he now has a "daddy" character. I hate it because it reminds me that one day he is going to ask about his so-called father and I'll have to come up with some drivel about him not being ready. Then as he gets older he'll start to understand that his father didn't want him. I don't understand that myself. At all. I'm sure there has to something wrong with someone to be able to pretend their child doesn't exist. Anyway, that day is getting closer. All the life of a single mother right?