PPD thoughts

My GP wants me to see her in January to discuss coming off antidepressants. That sounds simple enough right? 

I'm really not sure. When I was first diagnosed with postpartum depression in November 2010 I was then on antidepressants for six months. Stopped them in May 2011. In hindsight I started my steep fall into a relapse from around September 2011 but didn't make an appointment until February 2012. After trying two different antidepressants I started lofepramine again on the 1st May 2012. I'm not sure how many weeks it was before I was taking the full dose, maybe four weeks. That means January is going to be around seven months. Is that enough? I'm so worried about stopping these and then relapsing back into another round of depression. 

I mentioned to my manager that I'd probably let her know when my GP wants me to stop them. My manager was very supportive with my postpartum depression, having been there herself. I'm just started to feel so anxious/scared about stopping them. At the same time I don't want to feel like I need to depend on them either. I might see if I can have a chat with my manager because I don't know anyone else who has been there. It's something that no-one really talks about.

mid November

How is it possible that it's the middle of November? Can someone please slow this year down? 

It's been a while since I updated. 

On Saturday I met up with L, we'd been trying to catch up for a few weeks but seemed we weren't both free at the same time until then. We went out for dinner, I had my usual arrabiata, then we went to the cinema to see Taken 2. It was great to catch up and it was also good to get out for a while as well.

Bug is loaded with the cold. My poor boy. The last few morning he's been up at 5:45am all stuffed up and needing cuddles. Yesterday he had a massive nap so he must have been needing it. He's not really eaten that much but he has been drinking lots. He is so, so wonderful. A few days ago I had my hand on my forehead and he said "mummy, what's wrong?" I told him mummy had a sore head. He then climbed up on the chair next to me, kissed my forehead and said "all better" he really is amazing. His talking is brilliant and he has an incredible memory. Some things from months and months ago he'll just start talking about. it. A current example is the garden centre. We've not been to the garden centre for possibly close to a year and he keeps talking about going. I even asked the childminder if they had been recently but they've not. He's even been building garden centres with lego. I'll definitely need to take him once he's over this cold.

Bug also got his hair cut last Thursday (thank you Nanny for taking him). He always looks so grown up after a hair cut. That had been four months since the last hair cut and since his hair is like mine and grows really quickly I think there's quite a difference.

My friend who moved to Australia last year is back for five weeks so I can't wait to see her.