March

It's mid-March and it's snowing. Snowing!! 

My wonderful little boy turned three at the beginning of March. How is that possible? I mean how can be that it was over three years ago I was holding this tiny baby in my arms. It's been an amazing three years with him. He is talking so much now and his imagination is absolutely brilliant. I'm so truly lucky to be his mummy. I know I'm forever in debt to the universe for allowing me to grow and deliver my perfectly healthy little boy. I love him more than I ever thought possible. Being able to love him, help him learn and explore the world and watching him grow from a tiny dot on an ultrasound to a very confident and happy little boy has been beyond amazing. Beyond words. Miracles really do happen.

After much consideration last week I decided to get a hamster. Mostly because bug adores animals and it was a minimum commitment for me. Few outings in the hamster ball for exercise, handling him, letting him explore and everyone is happy. Bug named him Teddy and is really good with him, so gentle and talks to him. I'm really proud when he declares that Teddy is a little animal and we've to be careful.

I stopped taking antidepressants on the 1st March. So far I think I'm feeling ok. I've had a few wobbles where I've questioned how I'm coping. The most recent being this evening when bug was having a meltdown complete with screaming. At the moment I'm thinking it's his age, it's a tantrum and nothing that I'm doing. It doesn't mean that I'm an awful mother who can't cope. As it was just before bed time I opted for straight to bed. When I went to check on him he was back to his usual happy self. 

Heading to bed shortly myself and hoping it doesn't continue to snow during the night!